Friday, January 25, 2008

Turning Blue

It is hard holding your breath for 3-plus months. But that is what I feel like I've been doing. Ever since I got to hold her sweetness and hear her laugh and snuggle up with her in October, I've been holding my breath, waiting to bring her home.

Of course, I do get the requisite breaths needed to sustain life, but honestly, I'm not really breathing...

So I'm tossing up a prayer that we'll soon get Izzie home. I want to hear that we've gotten PGN approval. Then I want to hear that the final decree has been issued, and that the birth certificate and new passport have been completed. Then, that the DNA test has been conducted and processed and then that the U.S. Embassy in Guatemala has received the results and given us a Visa appointment date. I would like that date to be in March, or sooner!!

I would like all this so I can breathe. And so that I can hold her sweetness again and forever.

Thursday, January 10, 2008

The View of The Room

Maybe because I'm feeling more optimistic (and because some posters on an adoption thread started a discussion about what their babies' rooms look like), I thought I'd post a pic of my kids' room.

There's still work to be done, but it's nearly complete. We even hung a sweet chandelier in the alcove where Izzie's changing table/dresser is (you can't see it in this picture). And I still have some artwork to hang in there. But I really like it. It is cheerful -- a mish-mash of bright colors: hot pink, yellow, orange, red, sea blue, blue, lime green -- that I think mesh well together but give each child their own personal area.

They will be sharing a space for sleeping and keeping clothes in, but the playroom is upstairs. Of course, I suspect there will be many a night in which one or more of the kids will end up in my bed. Griffin still does on occasion, and sometimes for a treat on a weekend night he gets to fall asleep in my bed with me, as we watch HGTV. I do plan to co-sleep with Izzie if it helps with her attachment and adjustment. I co-slept with Griffin and am a big attachment parenting fan. There has been some good news from Guatemala... it looks like they are making progress on setting up this Central Authority. And I am still seeing cases being approved by PGN so I suppose they are doing some work. But there's still a lot of questions to be answered.

On a sad note, my dear friend lost her mother this week. I attended the funeral on Tuesday, and it was a lovely service for a lovely, beautiful woman. I am praying for the family, especially for my friend's father (he and his beloved wife were married for 60 years!), and for my friend who will miss her sweet mother so much.


Monday, January 07, 2008

In The New Year

It is 2008, and lots will happen. Izzie will come home, I truly believe. And I'm hoping sooner than later. Griffin turns six! Now that is amazing. My dear friend Amy will have her third child. We'll elect a new president! And so much more... It will be a very good year, I believe.
Izzie's file was resubmitted Dec. 20th, thank God. I found out the same time rumors were swirling that since the new law took effect (Dec. 31) PGN was no longer accepting new cases nor allowing current cases to be resubmitted after they were kicked out. There are plenty of questions remaining about the process of grandfathering, but apparently we are supposed to hear some news this week (more rumors, but I'm crossing my fingers!)
This has to be quick update, as I've got tons to do today. Izzie never leaves my thoughts, and this wait to bring her home is definitely taxing my emotions. But the sweet Griffin boy constantly rejuvenates me, as does the support of my amazing parents, brother, and friends.
Here's to 2008!